I’m going to go ahead and apologize for the bad grammar or spelling that may happen. My A key is stuck.
So I figured I would start a blog about my summer in Ocean City so my parents, grandma, and friends will know what’s going on with me in Maryland!
Today has mostly consisted of one activity: packing. Yes, the bane of every traveler, and especially for me because I am guilty of two things: overpacking and underpacking. You don’t know how many times I believe that I am fully prepared, and then realize later on that I DID pack that dress that I maybe possibly might find time to wear, but forgot pajamas. So I was determined to get all my packing done this weekend, yet here I am at 9:35 the night before I leave, blogging, even though I haven’t actually put anything into a suitcase yet.
Not to mention that Delta is charging me $15 to check one bag, and $25 to check the other bag. Seriously???
But I seriously am excited for this summer. I’m definitely nervous, because I’ve never been away from my family for 2 months before, and I don’t really know what to expect. And I’m scared that I won’t get a job. And I’m scared that my roommates will be dirty.
But you know what? I think we are meant to be scared sometimes. Because if I felt completely confident and not at all nervous, I wouldn’t feel the need to pray or spend time with the Lord. I would think that I had done a pretty great job planning everything, and that I was the reason that everything was going so smoothly. Thankfully, God has definitely been working on my heart already in that area. I thought I would be going to Yellowstone this summer; I already had a job lined up, I had a plane ticket, and I was trying my hardest to plan absolutely EVERYTHING so I wouldn’t be worried the night before I left. But then God said, “You know what? You think you have everything worked out, and you think you are so great at planning everything. I’m going to show you that you have absolutely no control. Everything that happens to me is because of Me, not because you were so organized and prepared.” And then the Yellowstone project got cancelled, and I was back to square one. All of my plans were useless, and I definitely had no power over what was happening.
At the time I was so upset with God. I was like “Seriously, God? I thought You wanted me to go on a summer project this summer, and now it’s cancelled! That’s not fair!” But in everything that took place between me finding out Yellowstone was cancelled and being accepted to the project in Ocean City, I did absolutely nothing. And it worked out. It has been amazing how absolutely every aspect of this trip has worked out without me doing anything on my own. People SO generously gave to support me. My plane ticket transferred. And those are just two of the ways that God has shown me His provision and His guidance. It’s been difficult for sure (as most of you know I am a complete control freak and I do NOT like when my plans are messed up), but God has already been breaking me of that need for control and showing me how I ultimately have no power over my life. He directs everything that has happened and ever will happen to me, and it’s not up to me. So I’m really excited to see what else He is going to teach me this summer; if He has already been teaching me so much and I’m not even on project yet, how much else does He have in store for my life in the next 2 months??
Alright. I MUST go pack. I really can’t procrastinate anymore…seeing as how my flight leaves in exactly 9 hours!
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